Lately I've just been in a sort of "blahish" mood and just sit around at the computer playing WoW-craft, wasting all my days off of work. Since the boyfriend is an avid gamer (where I am not) this makes it even harder because even though I might not be playing WoW, he might be playing Guild Wars, Neverwinter Nights 2, and all sorts of other games. So basically we still stay inside all day. I tried to get him to go out and just do things on my first day off (day before yesterday), but it ended up such a horrid day because of various reasons on his end. He insisted on taking clothing over to the shop to wash therefore he came into contact with his mom, who then proceeded to be shitty to him and it just snowballed from there.

I'm seriously considering - now, I know this will sound funny but don't laugh! lol - taking a month from playing WoW. Its quite literally what The Palace Chat was to me all those years ago. Taking up all my freaking time!

I HAVE worked on my website some lately, though. I will be re-doing the main part of my site in a new layout, and am going to work on putting in a new layout on my dolls site as well. I don't know if I'll make new dolls but I definitely want to keep that online for all to see.

I am also in a crafty sort of mood as of late - I'd like to make soap and do some t-shirt surgeries and see if they sell online. I've also bought a lot of scrapbooking types of papers and punches and stuff, and am going to be making custom labels. I know it sounds funny but its just something I feel like doing :) I bought a lot of crap yesterday for it, so hopefully I make a lot of money in tips on the train, to replace all I've spent ;_;

Yes, I'm still working on the train. I still dislike my job a lot. And I think its simply for the fact that I can't come home at the end of the night. Yeah, I get a hotel to sleep in with a huge room and comfortable bed, but thats not HOME! I can't go to the bar and get a drink (if I wanted to heh, with two drunk driver deaths close to the family in the last two weeks it makes me never want to pick up a drink again), I can't work on my crafts (I'd be weighed down with too much stuff in my bags!), and I can't see my boyfriend either. It rather sucks, but if I quit my job the benefits and pretty great pay disappear. :(

Speaking of, time to get ready for work.

Unfortunetly I'll be working, but February 25th marks mine and Zero's one year anniversary. And we've never even really fought during this year either (just over McDonalds and strippers...Yeah, don't ask hehe :). I love him so much, and am so happy we got together, we went through a lot of crap the past few years.

I'd call off work, but then I'd lose my guarantee (because I had vacation this month, I missed a second trip in addition to my vacation trip) sooo it would be really hard on me money wise if I called off ;(

Can't wait to get out of my apartment! This place is shit-tacular and the rent is going up another $50 a month (if I were to resign my lease). Thats just ridiculous! This place is going for the same amount of money now that the MUCH NICER apartmetns were going for in Merrillville, pretty much. While I love both my cats, I may end up giving up Rozz. While I'd like to keep the cats together, I think my mom is going to try to get me to de-claw Rozz, which I don't believe in for any animals. I guess we'll see how he fares over at her house when I get over there. Maestro I shall keep of course, he's the most awesome lap-cat around!

So I've actually talked to the "new" Marines recruiter, and he seems ok. Maybe having a wife and two kids does that to you (unless of course, he's lying about that too). I'm just very skeptical about them now. Either way, I haven't been able to do much working out because my work trips have been wonky what with the delays of trains going out (or being cancelled altogether). I just keep hoping the bad weather will pass now and I won't get stuck in St. Louis or Kansas City for an extra day :\ I've been extremely lucky in that respect.

I may see about taking some sort of extended "break" off of work once I'm at my moms, and have saved up a sufficient amount of money. Either that, or have regular trips I call off twice a month or something, just so I can get a regular work-out schedual. I know my current job at Amtrak isn't like being in the Marines by a long shot, but I am just so worn out when I get home, only get two days to do all my stuff, and then I'm out again on the train (like today!). It just leaves me wanting to be lazy and just lay about all day, playing online or the games I play (now Warcraft and Morrowind, thanks Zero :P). I know its all about needing teh time management skillzyo, though. Like I said, I'm lazy. :(

Just bleached my hair last night again. I made the mistake of buying a cheapo box of hair dye stuff instead of going to Sallys and getting the bleach, because it just didn't do a good job. I know if I had bought the stuff at Sallys' my hair would be much lighter, but eh, oh well. I'll do it again in a week or two, give my hair time relax. Don't want it to fall out (or have to be shaved like Britney Spears!).

Time to get ready for work :( This particular trip's only saving grace is that I'm there and back again really quick. I'm really only gone two days, just spread out over three.

I'll be going to California soon! Just one more work trip, and then I call off the next one. It will be great! I won't have to work for so many days and I'll also get to spend some time with my brother before he has to leave out again (he only gets about 10 days off I believe). I really wish I had money saved up...Because I would have called off this next week to go to the Rocky Horror convention in Chicago. But family comes first :.. But hey this way maybe I can make David go to Rocky while he's at home OMG that would be awesome ;_; It'd be the last one he'd ever see out here in NW Indiana I bet heh.

Even after throwing out roughly 1/2 of my belongings...My apartment still gets messy. I think I am going to have to cut down on 'stuff' again. I'm doing a little bit right now...But I keep going into battlegrounds on WoW. Sooo addicting! I even captured the flag once XD Hehe!

Life's going great with Zero. I spend more time at his apartment though than at my own...Which does kinda suck if only for my cats missing me a lot more. But my cats are well-behaved whereas Zero's cats are NOT. If he's gone for any great length of time they tear the place apart and piss all over I guess. That does suck, because mine have never been like that (and I leave for up to 6 days at a time for work!).

I don't want to stay with Amtrak. I want a real career. The problem is that it's easy and the money is relatively good for being an easy job. It's a death trap I tell you!

Well in less than two weeks I'll be in California, watching my brother graduate from Marine Corps boot camp. I can't wait to go! It is just at such a sucky time, because the Rocky Horror convention is going on the week prior to David's graduation...And unfortunetly I can't afford to call off TWO work trips. And I feel really BAD about it, because Rocky does mean a lot to me - but my brother means even more to me. I mean, come on! He's my water brother. Grok it? FOR REALS!

Work sucks, as usual. Although I did read two books on my last trip here, and I think they helped me to keep my sanity. I read "A Brief History of Time" by Stephan Hawking and also a book on Nostradamus' predictions from the past and for the future. Quite interesting reads for thrift store finds!

The Stephan Hawking book rocked. srsly! ya wai! It was so easy to read, I went through it in two days of working. I just hated the people (passengers) who said to me "WOW! I can't believe you are reading that!". I just would sort of give them "the look". Know what I mean?

I have some juicy Customers Suck stories that I'll be posting sometime soon, too. Hehe.

At least, that is my mantra for the moment. I am not sick. I am NOT sick. I am NOT sick! I wasn't feeling great last night, though. I feel warm and I was getting cold chills and then feeling warm. It sucked. I did feel well enough to go over to Zero's house though, and retrieve my Rocky clothing and my makeup which had been accidentally left in his car. Anyways, him and his mom took care of me for a while, for which I am grateful. I got home and cleaned up a bit and packed my bag for work; I was really hoping I didn't have to call this trip off. One trip, while I really can't afford to call off, I can you know. Two trips? That's over 100 hours of work lost then! It would be really bad.

As it is I don't have much money at all for about two weeks, but that is because I don't anticipate getting any sort of check this coming week because I called my last trip off to see David go away to boot camp. But I also paid off most of my bills for the month with the last check, as well as put more money towards credit cards. I will still get two checks before rent is due, and it should be more than enough to pay rent (690) and car insurance (145) if I correctly calculated how much those checks will be. If not, I guess I am in trouble :P

I don't look forward to working, either. At least, my job. I absolutely hate working on Amtrak. It's a dead end job that is breaking my body down. You may laugh and say I have a good job because of how much they are paying me -- well, you can see why! This job is terrible on your body and it steals away more than half of your life. The train may be trying to give me athsma - I won't let it, though. At least, I am hoping to be rid of this job in about a year.

As far as mother's day went, I got my mom some Fannie May candy, and cards and a big-assed Marines book. She cried at that, and I laughed. I know, I am terrible! I also tried to sign David's name to that crap and say that he signed it before she left, but she started crying and saying "It doesn't look like his hand-writing!" Ah well. Can't say I didn't try :P