Lately I've just been in a sort of "blahish" mood and just sit around at the computer playing WoW-craft, wasting all my days off of work. Since the boyfriend is an avid gamer (where I am not) this makes it even harder because even though I might not be playing WoW, he might be playing Guild Wars, Neverwinter Nights 2, and all sorts of other games. So basically we still stay inside all day. I tried to get him to go out and just do things on my first day off (day before yesterday), but it ended up such a horrid day because of various reasons on his end. He insisted on taking clothing over to the shop to wash therefore he came into contact with his mom, who then proceeded to be shitty to him and it just snowballed from there.

I'm seriously considering - now, I know this will sound funny but don't laugh! lol - taking a month from playing WoW. Its quite literally what The Palace Chat was to me all those years ago. Taking up all my freaking time!

I HAVE worked on my website some lately, though. I will be re-doing the main part of my site in a new layout, and am going to work on putting in a new layout on my dolls site as well. I don't know if I'll make new dolls but I definitely want to keep that online for all to see.

I am also in a crafty sort of mood as of late - I'd like to make soap and do some t-shirt surgeries and see if they sell online. I've also bought a lot of scrapbooking types of papers and punches and stuff, and am going to be making custom labels. I know it sounds funny but its just something I feel like doing :) I bought a lot of crap yesterday for it, so hopefully I make a lot of money in tips on the train, to replace all I've spent ;_;

Yes, I'm still working on the train. I still dislike my job a lot. And I think its simply for the fact that I can't come home at the end of the night. Yeah, I get a hotel to sleep in with a huge room and comfortable bed, but thats not HOME! I can't go to the bar and get a drink (if I wanted to heh, with two drunk driver deaths close to the family in the last two weeks it makes me never want to pick up a drink again), I can't work on my crafts (I'd be weighed down with too much stuff in my bags!), and I can't see my boyfriend either. It rather sucks, but if I quit my job the benefits and pretty great pay disappear. :(

Speaking of, time to get ready for work.

Unfortunetly I'll be working, but February 25th marks mine and Zero's one year anniversary. And we've never even really fought during this year either (just over McDonalds and strippers...Yeah, don't ask hehe :). I love him so much, and am so happy we got together, we went through a lot of crap the past few years.

I'd call off work, but then I'd lose my guarantee (because I had vacation this month, I missed a second trip in addition to my vacation trip) sooo it would be really hard on me money wise if I called off ;(

Can't wait to get out of my apartment! This place is shit-tacular and the rent is going up another $50 a month (if I were to resign my lease). Thats just ridiculous! This place is going for the same amount of money now that the MUCH NICER apartmetns were going for in Merrillville, pretty much. While I love both my cats, I may end up giving up Rozz. While I'd like to keep the cats together, I think my mom is going to try to get me to de-claw Rozz, which I don't believe in for any animals. I guess we'll see how he fares over at her house when I get over there. Maestro I shall keep of course, he's the most awesome lap-cat around!

So I've actually talked to the "new" Marines recruiter, and he seems ok. Maybe having a wife and two kids does that to you (unless of course, he's lying about that too). I'm just very skeptical about them now. Either way, I haven't been able to do much working out because my work trips have been wonky what with the delays of trains going out (or being cancelled altogether). I just keep hoping the bad weather will pass now and I won't get stuck in St. Louis or Kansas City for an extra day :\ I've been extremely lucky in that respect.

I may see about taking some sort of extended "break" off of work once I'm at my moms, and have saved up a sufficient amount of money. Either that, or have regular trips I call off twice a month or something, just so I can get a regular work-out schedual. I know my current job at Amtrak isn't like being in the Marines by a long shot, but I am just so worn out when I get home, only get two days to do all my stuff, and then I'm out again on the train (like today!). It just leaves me wanting to be lazy and just lay about all day, playing online or the games I play (now Warcraft and Morrowind, thanks Zero :P). I know its all about needing teh time management skillzyo, though. Like I said, I'm lazy. :(

Just bleached my hair last night again. I made the mistake of buying a cheapo box of hair dye stuff instead of going to Sallys and getting the bleach, because it just didn't do a good job. I know if I had bought the stuff at Sallys' my hair would be much lighter, but eh, oh well. I'll do it again in a week or two, give my hair time relax. Don't want it to fall out (or have to be shaved like Britney Spears!).

Time to get ready for work :( This particular trip's only saving grace is that I'm there and back again really quick. I'm really only gone two days, just spread out over three.

Yesterday I actually worked on my dolls website...I didn't do much updating with actual dolls, but I did fix lots of pages, got rid of broken links, and updated with more links and such. I thought I did pretty well, considering I haven't touched that website in a while now. Yays!

Speaking of yesterday...It was all rainy, hot, and icky. Today when I woke up it was sunny and hot out. Right when I got home from eating out with my Zero, it got all stormy again! WTF? Oh well. Can't help it I guess. Right when I got home I also had to turn two of my wall-unit air conditioners on as well, it was disgusting in the apartment.

I don't know what I'm going to do during the summer (if I am still in this apartment) for AC for the cats when I'm at work. I can leave windows open, sure, for the cats but I don't know how hot it would make it in the apartment and I certainly don't want my cats to die! However on the other hand, the ac's I got are decrepit peices of shit and don't automatically turn off once it reaches a certain temperature. It's either on, or off :\ That could cost quite a bit to leave one one the entire time I'm gone! Not to mention the fact that once they get cold enough, they ice over and well, that doesn't help to cool things down actually :P

So just as my Zero was becoming quite jaded about finding an apartment he could both afford and keep his cats at, the owner of the restaurant we were eating at approached him and offered him the apartment above (he had previously talked to the guy about it). And he can even keep his cats! I'm so happy for him. People were being really shitty because he is younger (only 25...that's not really young!) which surprised me, because I didn't encounter anything like that when I got my apartment...oh well.

I hate the summer *is sweating still*

I got both loads of laundry going right now (mostly work uniforms) which is great, because it means I'll have time to spend with my Zero today (I work tomorrow).

Oh, did I mention that Rozz totally scratched up my boobie? Srsly! I was holding and petting him while sitting on the floor the other night, and Maestro was by my side. I don't know what Zero did, but he accidentally kicked something under my desk which just also happened to scare the shit out of my cats. Now, Rozz is the one with claws...He latched onto me like a homesick abortion with talons, and then CLIMBED OVER ME WITH SAID TALONS. He did put a deep scratch in my boob, then I had tiny pinpricks up and down my left shoulder blade. And since I'm highly allergic to cats, they turned into mosquito-bite looking bumps. Yeah, it made me cry for a minute or two.

It was cute though, Zero was quite upset at himself. I guess he doesn't like seeing me cry awww :D

Let's tell the truth: I waste a lot of time online. And I've noticed, the time I spend online is mostly doing nothing [productive]. I just chat with the few online friends I have, or show off my hot body on CW (haha yuh right!). I seriously either want to get a website up and running that will generate money, or I may just stop posting to CW all together. If it's not profitable, I want to use my time to find something that IS profitable. Making extra money is always a good thing.

Anyways, onto my lack of time management skillz. I was looking up information online on "how to de-clutter". Yes, I'm that bad about clutter, junk, and garbage (not so much garbage, but still...) that I need directions on how to shape up. I found this website called Fly Lady and it really helped me out. In fact, it had just what I was looking for! You see I'm either a compulsive list-writer, or I just don't. I usually go for "just don't" because it's the easy way out :P

So yeah...Part of her site instructs you to make a "morning routine" to do in the morning. For those of you who went and actually looked at or read part of the site, I totally left out the "shining your sink" bit because that's just plain retarded since I don't cook in my shitty-assed kitchen that's the size of a small bathroom.

I did do the entire list this morning, I was kinda proud of myself. Mostly likely due to the fact that I never ever make my bed, and I did that this morning. HAHA!

1. Rise and Shine
a. Make your bed as soon as you get out of it.
b. Go to the bathroom, shower, and clean as you go.
c. Fix your hair and put on your face. [makeup, for those who don't get it]
d. Put a load of laundry in the washer.
2. Kitchen
a. Feed the cats.
b. Feed yourself.
c. Drink a full cup of water.
3. Think about your day.
a. Make a list of what you need to do today.
b. Don't forget your laundry!
c. Clean and/or tidy up your place.
4. Think about yourself
a. Take your vitamins.
b. Eat breakfast (if you already haven't).
c. Reward yourself with computer time. [ok, ok so I cheated on that. It was nearly the first thing I did in the morning, but I didn't let it distract me, either :P]

While my kitchen isn't clean and spot-less, it is uncluttered and tidy. There are some dishes in the sink which need to be cleaned, but when they ARE clean there is a spot in the cabinets for them.

The living room looks more like, well...A living room, even though I don't use the TV much. And all just by re-arranging the furniture. Imagine that?

I don't know why I never thought of Hobart to look for houses in, but as I went with Zero to look at apartments for him out there, I realized it is cute out there! I'm glad he asked me to go with him. I guess I thought Hobart would be bad? I dunno, I think it was just my "mom" aspect of me coming out (I had that side. Haha!). I looked up houses for sale out there too, and they don't seem bad for the prices! There are a lot of decent houses for sale out there in the $95,000 range. That's not much more than I was going to pay for that condo in Merrillville! I emailed both my Dad and Tracy (real estate agent) to see what they think of Hobart.

Of course I would just totally love to live with Zero, but I SO do NOT want to ruin our relationship (and neither does he!) HAHAHAHAHA OMG. I like this whole "missing my man" feeling when I'm not with him :D

I also called the IRS and I am getting a free copy of my '04 taxes in transcript form (eh?). Hey, the key word there is "free" so I have no problems with it :D My dad has a copy of my '05 taxes of course so I'll be able to set up an appointment to get financing for a house done yays! I still have to pay off some debts that are on my credit report *is pissy about it because they are fucking medical bills from when i was hit by a drunk driver that I didn't know my lawyer hadn't paid* grr Oh well I'll get those paid, get my credit card bills paid and all will be well *yays big cheers*

Too bad I go to work tomorrow. Ugg. But I do feel like I've gotten a lot done these past four days off...And my trips really do fly by, I'll be home on Monday night!

You know...Things are looking up. The only bad thing going on is the shit with Amtrak.

I think something is wrong with me! Because I'm cleaning so much of course. I just took two bags of garbage out; they mostly consisted of more clutter around my apartment. No matter where or when I am moving into a house, I am glad that I am throwing stuff away. It will make it slightly more easy when it comes to move-time :D

I think that I totally forgot about my appointment with the financing lady :\ That SUCKS. But I wasn't prepared for it anyways; I still need copies of '05 and '04 taxes. The '04 taxes will be the problem.

There wasn't too much suckage on my last work trip. In fact, there wasn't any suckage. I guess if I can't remember it, there must not have been any, hehh. It was quite boring in fact. There were hardly any people on the train trip back to Chicago. That's ok though, I'm sure it will pick up come summer. Tips are only so-so, even though I am uber-entertaining during the "wine and cheese" tasting thing. Kinda sucks they don't tip me...But I'm not going to worry over it or anything. If I don't get tips, I don't get tips *shrugs*

Zero wants me to go looking at apartments with him (for him -- not us). Mainly so that I can point out flaws because he'll probably like anything he see's simply so he can move away from his parents house *laughs* We were going to go today, but we slept in too late (in my opinion). I may look for houses in the area he wants to move to as well (Hobart) but I'm not sure. I have absolutely no fucking clue what that area is like.

So again, I'm cleaning. Hmmm....Cleaning. Crazy. I've done a lot of cleaning these past few days off. The only thing I've been avoiding the last few weeks is my laundry...But mostly because I'm a lazy motherfucker who doesn't want to continually walk up and down those damnable stairs to do said laundry.

I also re-arranged the furniture in my living room. It actually looks like a "living" room now, it's just that I don't have cable TV so I really don't know why I continue to center my furniture around the TV. I mean I still watch DVD's and have my playstation, but that is rare. Well, not so rare anymore because me and Zero watch movies together, but still. Maybe if I move, and it doesn't cost too much, I'll get cable tv or satellite or something.

BTW, I want some ideas on how to make extra money. Getting nekkid online is all well and good, but it doesn't seem to work. Either that, or I am still a lazy motherfucker when it comes to shit like that XD